Safe and...

...ignorant...


I hope I don't wake up.
This is too great right now.


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Hello...

...my name is distance...

I know what I want...but I also know that this is going to be hard...I make the most horrible decisions for myself...and I always have.

I don't like getting hurt...can't stand it...but then again, who does right? I do know , however, that I needed to get hurt. There is always a reason for everything that happens...I believe that very strongly.

Sometimes I think I shouldn't feel like this. How I've been the past couple of weeks...I just get all these memories and it makes me happy...I hope to God that I'm not just using this as an escape..and that my mind isn't playing a trick on me.

...all I know for sure is that I'll be okay...I'll figure it out. I always have and I always will.

I'm not even sure anymore of what I DON"T want.

I'm just sure that I need my music. That's all I'll ever NEED. Feelings come...and feelings fade away...all kinds of feelings...love, hate...and everything in between. Always. They always have for me...but fuck if I don't know how to pick MY OWN self up and move the hell on. I'm too strong to let ANYONE ever have that much control over my life...though it is kind of a sad thing...almost...

I hate letting people get too close to me.

...but for some reason...

...I'm letting my guard down.

I trust this.
I trust this.
I trust this.

Whatever the outcome...

I'm okay.
I'm okay.
I'm okay.



...amphigory.
I know.
Apologies.



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Chrysta

I think it's safe to say...

...that I have had the most...interesting...weekend. I had a lot of fun. Sometimes I shock myself. Lol. But hey, live fast right? No regrets right? I live by those two things most of the time.

...that's all for now.

I'm just going to go and replay the weekend in my head a few times...


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Chrysta

I think...

I'm okay.